When I’m Feeling Alone
It’s a fact – we come into this world and leave it — alone. There’s no getting around that. But there are so many times that I just feel utterly alone. That no one – not even, and especially, my family – understands me. That’s distressing. Why can’t my husband understand that it is important to set aside his feelings sometimes to just try and understand mine. If only he could, oh what’s the word, aknowledge that he hears what I’m saying – even if he doesn’t agree. That’s distressing. That’s when I feel alone.
So, what am I as a “Pastor’s Wife” supposed to do when I’m distressed and feel alone? Turn to Jesus, of course. I’m supposed to cry out to Him, fall on my knees (in the opposite order) and not be distressed about anything, right? Yes, that is what I’m supposed to do. I’m supposed to do all that and then — and look out, here comes a word I know is going to stir up emotions in most anyone that might read my blog — submit (ewww, there it is) to my husband even when he’s not shown any compassion for me. That’s when I feel completely alone. Misunderstood and alone.
Does God understand me? Yes, I know He does. Do I hear Him? Not when I’m feeling sorry for myself. But it’s a lonely world sometimes and oh how I wish He would just hold me when I’m feeling this way – alone, misunderstood, distressed, you get the picture.
What do you do? When you feel so alone?
